by the way… im happy that u remembered all the remaining things that you could ever remember of us… at the very least.. i know you still care and bother to think bout us… sorry bout that, but i cant really remember who the hell you are… 

stuff have been said bout me recently… thought i wanna know how she would be doing now… now i just wish i didnt bother… life goes on… glad to know that the other party’s her everything… glad to know how she felt towards our love back then… glad to know how she felt bout my treatment towards her… 

thing is… i just posted something on fb, saying something bout how people never remember the good old times that you and that one girl who was once your everything, just seemed to crumple after a single crack in the wall.. but they always, and i mean ALWAYS, seem to remember all the hatred and pain… 

im glad to know the level of pain that she has gone thru because of me… yet i said before, that i was willing to go all out for her once again, if she gave me that chance… there wasnt anymore… she chose that life, i ain’t gonna reach out to her cold hands anymore.. there is no point.. 

im happy for the fact that she just threw me there, leaving me to so desperately try to get her back.. cause i know… and i saw, how silly i was, how stupid i was when i was in those depths of desperation, trying ever so hard to do her bidding, but to no avail.. 

well, i still treat your mum like mine, even though i shld not be doing so.. apparently she was the onli parent who really liked me… and i told that girl before, that her family is my family… that fact will never change… 

i have someone new in my life, yet i feel like i owe her too much… 

too much of the old me gone, all thanks to the one yr of fighting so badly… getting so weak inside… i couldnt believe what kinda life i was living back then… i want that old level of confidence back in my life… i wanna show her how i can love her, the way i fell for u…